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So I got some really bad news tonight regarding the fact that I am not going to be graduating in May with some of my friends and on time...unfortunately I did not get an internship for the summer. I know in my heart that this happened for a reason and that God has a plan for everything, I know that...but right now, it is really hard to make myself believe it! I am upset, I am sad, I am disappointed, I am lost! No ones graduation should depend on whether or not they get an internship, no ones college degree should either and I picked a major where it did happen that way. I will be okay, I will get through this, and I eventually will come to understand the reason behind it all...but right now I don't and that's ok. I just look forward to spring break 2010 in The Bahamas and to a brighter future that God has already planned out for me. More news on this tragic week, that only just begun-we have to put my 10 yr old golden retriever down soon, and it's going to be like losing a best friend. Really needed good news to conteract my bad news I got-but that wasn't the case either, once again this isn't about me, it's about God and I have to realize that. So pray that I continue to see light at the end of this very long tunnel, that I can find my happiness deep down and that I will find the means to accept this-and soon! Thanks!

SO READY!

My whole life my dad has been telling me, don't rush things because one day you'll look back and wish you could go back to that very moment. He's told me to not rush my life away. However, most days I feel like that is what I'm doing. I've got something better for the end of the week, I've got an amazing weekend planned, etc. and I find myself counting down the days till I'm at that moment. Just the other day I was once again talking my dad about the cruise I am taking in a little less than a month and said I was so excited and I wished it was already March 8th. My dad said, I know your excited, but don't wish your life away. I said I know dad but I'm just so ready and I can't wait and it's going to be so much fun. He laughed and said I know pookie, but cherish the days you have between now and then. I laughed and said ok to please him. Then again last night I was at my neighbors house and we were talking about the cruise and trying to figure out how we're getting to Miami, Fl and I we all got so excited just talking about how it's going to be fun, and how it's 5 girls going and well that's craziness and 13 hours in a car in one day, and 5 days together non stop, and 13 hours back to Greenville in one day-wow I hope we are all friends when we return (haha). We were laughing non-stop laast night and I was just so excited again and found myself wishing it was already March 8th and we were leaving for Miami, or make that march 9 and we were on the boat on our way to Gran Turk! Well, I got to thinking...(that's bad sometimes for me) My dads right, why do I wish my life away? Each day that we are given is a gift from God and we should be fully engaged in each day that He has provided for us. Some people are fighting for just one more day, for just a few more hours and here I am just wishing it all away. I think that most of us do this without thinking about it because we're in the moment. But we should take that moment to reflect on what God has given us. I realize that it's not always easy to do this, but I'm definitely going to try and I think that should all try to not take everything we have for granted and realize that we should be happy with the NOW and not look so in to the future. That's when things get messed up, the future is our plan for our life and God is laughing because we're trying to make our own plans when really He is the only person who knows what the future holds. We aren't guarenteed another minute here on earth so why are we looking so far ahead in life when we should be happy with what we've got right this minute!