I survived

So, I went to Oklahoma the other week with my mom, sister, and grandfather to visit family that I have never met before. It was awesome. However, we had to fly to get there and well....I'm not real big on flying. We had to switch planes in Houston and Atlanta and I really wasn't keen on that either-but I wanted to get there and this is what I had to do. I sat with my mom on the isle seat on all 4 planes and didn't start looking out the window until about the 3rd flight. However, being up above the clouds was just so surreal and amazing. I was in awe of God's glory. It was raining in OK when we left Monday evening and we got above those clouds and the sun was shining to brightly-if I didn't already believe this would have made me. I prayed the whole time we were on those flights for God to just keep us safe and get us there and back. I have never been so relieved to see my dad at midnight and to be on the ground. However,the trip itself was just so great. I meet 5 of 9 of my moms cousins, my grandfather's 78 year old sister and her husband and meet cousins I didn't know I had. It was awesome. For years I've thought that I had this tiny little family and now I know that I have quite a large family. And although they are miles away, we could still contact them if we were in need. Leaving was bittersweet-wondering if my grandfather would ever see his sister again or his niece and nephews. Its been 30 years since he's been to OK and probably a good 10 since he's seen his sister-my grandfather is 87 years old and will be 88 in September. And although when I look at him I do not see an 87 year old man I know he is and it makes me sad to think this may have been the last time until they meet again in heaven. He had so much fun and what a way to leave :) Just though I'd share these things.

Am I ready?

Over the past few weeks I have been extremely not busy to be able to sit and ponder life...this does not always go over well. I have really wondered if I am ready to leave Greenville, to leave the world I know, the friends I have made, the life that I have lived and have come to really enjoy over the past 4 years. I keep wondering if I've picked the right major if I can really do what I have been taught to do. Am I really ready to live in a world that I am no familiar with? The real world, the working world, the world of grown ups? College life has been so easy and I am elated about getting and internship and being able to move back to Charlotte and in with my sister...but will Charlotte be what I have known it to be once I'm back for good? Am I ready to not be immature when I want to be, to act like I have some sense when I don't always, to make new friends, when I've got ones here I like just fine, to pick another church-because who knows where I'll end up going once I'm back...Stough....Elevation....my own place???? God only knows. I trust God completly with my life and I know that He will take care of me and with Him by my side that I will be ready for what ever is thrown my way, but right now I'm questioning it all..why? Because it's change and I don't do well with change even though my life needs a change. Hopefully I can find some way to become ok with all of this by mid July when it's time to peace out of here but right now between my friends and I "leaving" isn't mentioned much and the summer is going way too fast for our liking!