Missing it all...

So I've officially moved back to Charlotte. Wow...this seems so surreal and I still think at times that I'm only here for the weekend and that I'll soon be packing up and going back to Greenville. Then reality hits me like a ton of bricks and I realize that my life there is over and it's time to start a new one here. I've moved in with my sister and her other roommate and don't get me wrong, I love it! I have wanted nothing less then to move back to Charlotte, but now that I'm here for good I want nothing more then to be back in Greenville with my girls! I know that we've all dispersed but that doesn't seem to make it any easier. I see my sister and her roommate and it only reminds me of the times my roommates and I had. Dinners, life talks, car rides, singing, etc. I know that this will get easier but right now it's super hard. 4 years ago I wanted to come home for good. I wanted to move back and go to UNCC but I didn't because something or someone told me to just stick it out and I did. Best choice of my life and now it hurts knowing that that chapter there is really over and I have to start anew. I'm not sad to be back, but I'm lost...where do I go, what do I do, who do I do it with...the list could go on. I want things to be like they were in Greenville and that's not going to happen. I know starting my internship will keep me pre-occupied but for the time being I'm very quiet, lonely, looking for my place, and trying to fit in to this new life that I'm trying to make. I feel like a circle piece of a puzzle made for a square piece. I know God has me in Charlotte for a reason. I prayed for Charlotte and one day I'll hopefully find the answer as to why I am back here. Why we all had to leave Gville...but until then I will try to be happy and continuously asking God to help me through because I know that He will-he has a plan and I am open to see what's ahead.